That Je Ne Sais Quoi

Over the past few weeks, I've been on several dates.  For some reason, the chemistry was extremely lacking.  I find it interesting that I have chemistry with men who are bad for me.  Whether we lack anything in common or they have 10 kids and 5 baby mama's.  Maybe I have a thing for boys I can't catch or who I know are easily attainable.  I really want to like the guys who have great jobs and have their heads on straight.  Don't get me wrong, they aren't bad looking, just blah! It's so hard to find someone with personality who actually wants to have a relationship.  I think they might know how good they are and like playing the field.  Sometimes I feel like Charlotte from Sex and the City.  "I've been dating since I was 15, where is he already?!?!"

I've come to realize that maybe I'm just so accustomed to dating, that might not be able to move to the next step.  I ask my friends who are in relationships and most of them have not really ever dated.  Things literally just happened.  I could just be entertaining my boredom by even going on dates or finding material by enduring really bad dates.  I'm not sure.  All I know, this is getting very tiring!