In My Head


by John Eisenschenk I am starting to become accustomed to this non scheduled way of posting. It seems I can only write when there's a spare moment of inspiration in my busy life. Sigh. But I created my life this way, so I keep on truckin'. I have these sudden bouts of crazy emotion the same time every month. I honestly don't know what to do with them. I get upset pretty quickly and I'm just better left alone. I never understood why people have the urge to want to fix what is wrong but in all reality, nothing is really wrong. I just have a heightened sense of self and I didn't realize how I reacted until it was too late. I believe in the "Power of Now", Eckhart Tolle speaks about women not being themselves during this time. I have had such difficulty honing on how to be present and find peace when my reactions tend to be a little erratic. Most of the time, I find myself talking my way out of it in my head. I guess that's what it means when you're "in your head". I get lost in there sometimes. I believe its true with those who have a creative mind. They get lost in their ideas, dreams, and visions, they forget there's a reality to live. I think that's why I've never been good at taking pictures. I'm in my head, in that moment,and I forget that I should remember it by taking a snapshot.  There are so many memories from college I wish I had a picture of but I never stopped to take a picture.  Luckily, the Comedian is a picture person, so problem solved!

My point out of all of this is to remind yourself to stop and see the moment for what it is.  Get out of your head and slow down.  I'm partially saying this to myself as a reminder.  Then again, blogging has always been a good way to remind myself that this is the mindset I have and how I want to grow.